Friday, October 3, 2014

SENDING YOU MY HEARTFELT CARE AND ATTENTION

Dear Friend,

Wanna say thank you for all the sincere kindness of friendship you’ve spattered to me.  Honestly and with all genuineness, you’re one of the best people I’ve ever met.  In line to that remarks, I really want to signify that I love the way you deal with me; with all of my immaturities, imperfection and flaws, not as you put your compromise to it but to give me space to grow and provide me liberty to find myself.  For me, the paradigm of amity you publicized to your friends is one of the greatest achievements you’ve done in your life.

I felt that I was so much flattered when we became friends; so much flattered that I felt also I’m not worthy to be associated with you, especially at this lowest point of my life that I formulated and done a decision that seems dim-witted in the eyes of many people.

After this decision, you will hear rumors about my leaving, thus, I absolutely accept and understand if you want to keep distance of me; that’s the consequences I must bear.  My vulnerability as a woman is now resting on its peak, so sorry.  Therefore, I didn’t acquire your high expectation of me, so forgive me.

After all, I’m the same “Yhang” you’ve met before- simple, shy, silent or mediocre.  If I still found gratifying in your eyes, I’m present in no time to be your thoughtful friend until 
HIS coming.

Sending you my heartfelt care & attention,
Yhang Florina M. Cabrera


I'M SORRY

Dear Tatay, Nanay, Apostle Jon, Ptra. Beth & To All Staff,

I'M SORRY I leave you all today without prior notice:(
I'M SORRY That I did not take care of my heart for Jesus:(
I'M SORRY For being so silent and so shy that I cannot broadcast this:(
I'M SORRY I’m so weak nowadays that I will not be able to contribute great things for the ministry:(
I'M SORRY I now cannot cope full blast & sacrificially as a fulltime like what you all did & will do:(
I'M SORRY For the past 6 years, now I decided to leave God’s calling:(
I'M SORRY I leave all my responsibilities:(
I'M SORRY For being a great burden to all of you:(
I'M SORRY I hurt you all today:(
I'M SORRY For this stupid farewell letter.
I'M SORRY I'm not good enough; I’m too coward & fearful.
I'M SORRY For saying, “Please understand me, I want to be with my Papa & Mama:(
I'M SORRY Please forgive me:(
I'M SORRY I can’t help but to say sorry:(
I’M SORRY I’m now outside the will of God but my heart will continue remain as a servant:(
I’M SORRY And my heart will continue to beat for Jesus and to Jesus Is Our Shield Worldwide Ministries forever…

With Sincere Love & Tears,

Yhang Florina M. Cabrera