Sunday, December 11, 2022

I WILL BE THE LOVE

 I will be the arms that wrap around you, the lips that kiss your cheeks with tenderness. I will be the warmth that fills you, the strength that builds within your bones. I will be the breath you breathe—inhale, exhale together—that centers you, gives you peace.


I won’t be, and I can’t be the one who saves you, but I will be the love that brings you back to yourself.

IM GIVING HIM MY WEAKNESSES

I’m giving him all the problems I can’t solve and all the hardships I can’t handle. I’m giving him everything on my plate because it’s getting too heavy to carry by myself. I’m handing him all my problems because I’m done trying to pretend like I can solve them all or figure it all out. I’m done trying to pretend like I don’t need him and his guidance. I’m done trying to depend on people when he’s the only one I should really depend on. He’s the only one who can truly rescue me.

FORGIVE YOURSELF

We all have a past that we may or may not be proud of, but we can’t deny that it happened. Some lessons were probably harder than others to learn, but never the less, they were detrimental into shaping us into the people that we are today. If you cling onto anger at yourself for things you might’ve done wrong, then you’ll never open up the door for happiness. You deserve peace in your life, so forgive yourself.

GOD HAS A PLAN FOR YOU

 If you ever think you’re having a bad day, just thank God for it. God has a plan for you and asks for your trust and patience. You’ll reach your destination and when you finally do, you’ll look back at all those bad days and smile. You’ll thank God for the bad days because they all lead you to where you’re supposed to be.

ITS NOT ABOUT WHAT WE CAN GAIN BUT WHAT WE CAN GIVE

Honestly, it’s not about what we can gain, but what we can give. Not about the material possessions we own or riches we store up, but the ways we can bless one another and be content with where we are and what we have. It’s not about grabbing everything we can selfishly, but learning, letting go, growing, and finding moments to celebrate, even when the road gets tough.


So I don’t want to be someone else. I don’t want to be the best. I don’t want to always feel like I’m struggling, and never good enough. I don’t want to waste time trying to pursue what’s not meant for me, but instead embrace all that I am and celebrate each day.


All I want to be is a person who is joyous, who finds hope in the brokenness and light in the dark. I just want to fill and be filled, to bless other people as I have been blessed. To be not focused on what the world can give to me, but what I can create and celebrate in the time that I’m here.

ONE OF MY FAVORITE PRAYER WHEN I AM A TEENAGER

 My favorite prayer/reminder 💕 one of my favorite older pieces 😊


Dear God,


Please don’t let me get attached to what’s not meant for me anymore. Don’t let me get attached to something or someone that you plan on taking away from me.


I know your plan is unknown but until you reveal it to me, please make it easier. Don’t let me hold on to what I need to let go of. Don’t let me fight for what I need to release. Do not let me desire what will eventually destroy me. Do not let me love those who will break my heart.


Because I get attached easily and I hold on to things tightly, so please don’t let my mind want things that I can’t handle, don’t let my mind trick me into wanting things I don’t need or things that are not good for me. Please don’t let my heart miss people who don’t miss me. Don’t let my heart long for the ones who left. Don’t let my heart fall in love with someone who doesn’t want to stay.


Please don’t let me get attached to the things that keep me up at night, to people who leave me wondering and to places I’m not meant to live in. Bring me closer to what’s meant for me, let me hold on to those who are meant to stay.


But let me forget about the things that were never meant to be, give me the faith I need to believe that I’m better off without them. Give me the wisdom I need to realize that I deserve so much better and that I’ll be happier somewhere else with somebody else.


Or just give me tolerance I need right now to be okay with not getting the things I want, with not loving the ones I wanted to love and give me the patience I need to wait for your blessings and wait for your gifts.


But for now, please don’t let me get attached to what’s wrong for me. Don’t let me invest so much in things or people I’m bound to lose. Don’t let me want what’s not mine. Don’t let me build a future around what’s temporary.

THERE IS STRENGTH IN ALL OF US

For every woman who identifies as strong, I hope this resonates with you. Be proud of your strength.


"Strong women get attached easily because they go into everything—including relationships—with their full hearts.


They are incredibly passionate and determined, and when they find who they feel is ‘the one,’ they’re ready and willing to make everything work."

TO MY BESTFRIEND

u will always be the one who understood, who cared, who stayed.


You will always be the camera phone photos, our lips squished against one another’s cheeks.


You will always be the body standing next to me, our Homecoming dates behind us with their arms around our waists.


You will always be the pile of college papers spread between us, a plate of cookies and our secret beers hidden behind the dresser.


You will always be the words I never had to say, the promises you spoke to life with your lips—that no matter where we went, or how far apart, we would always be each other’s.


You will always be the voice on the other line of the telephone, the comfort of what I didn’t know I needed to hear.


You will always be the encouragement, the praise, the tough-love when I was spiraling down.


You will always be the reminder of the love I deserve, the strength I needed those bad boys to the curb.


You will always be the one who treated me like nothing short of a sister—a bond so unbreakable that I learned, with you, the true meaning of love.


You will always be the one I call when I’m empty, the smile that brings light to my life when I’m clouded in darkness.


You will always be the person I rely on, the woman I admire as she goes about her days growing, strengthening, blooming.


You will always be our memories, locked safely away in my heart as a reminder of where we’ve been, who we will become.


No matter where this life takes us, you’ve been the one constant.


And I thank God for you.


Because I can fall in love with boys, with men. I can give my heart away. I can slip in and out of relationships, but the one truth remains—you will always have my heart, best friend.


You will always be my first, and greatest love.