Everyday is a battle between a
trying-to-be-strong me vs full-of-negativity me. Everyday I search for
motivation within me, to get up and start my day. Everyday I wish I could turn
back the old me, a cheerful and stronger version of me, a high performer me.
Everyday I feel disappointed on how thoughts are running thru my mind, how I
evaluate myself and how I respond with the things happening around me. Everyday
is a constant reminder that I am at my lowest, that failure has kicked in,
starting to eat and dominate my life. Yes, everyday I overthink things. And
overthinking kills.
Everyday I question myself, “When
this will end? When will I get better? Why am I suddenly a POORformer? Why
can’t I cope with the demands of my work? Why am I always doubting myself? How
to trust myself again? How to regain myself?”
As these negative bubbles are popping
on my mind, still, there’s a small voice of hope reaching me.
Everyday I receive love. Everyday I
have family and friends who are not getting tired of listening to my redundant
rants and stories. Everyday there are people who cares about me. Everyday there
are these people who finds time and effort to pop a single message asking how
am I doing. Everyday there are people who reminds me that I can still get up
and rebuild my life. Lastly, everyday the Holy Spirit gives me strength to push
thru and get thru life’s obstacles.
Everyday is tiring. But these people
are not getting tired of me. So who I am to give up? Still, everyday is a
blessing. I am clinging to this hope that things will get better. Life
continues..
Florina
Cabrera
cabreraflorina.blogspot.com
ios.florinac@gmail.com
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