MY BIRTHDAY PRAYER 2017

One of those nights when I feel tired, hopeless…

Nights when I wish someone could treat me like a princess, carry me back to my dreams…

Affirm me of what changes tomorrow can bring, and hand over my armour.

Silent nights of sadness mean moments in prayer, in deep reflection of what burns inside and what voices I hear.

In prayer, I find comfort in His arms and word that lives on.

I choose to silence my fears and tears.

Everyday I face mountains and monsters.

When tomorrow’s nothing but uncertain, in His eyes I’m God’s princess, I’m His daughter…

Who fails for so many times yet carried back to His royal love.

His love endures forever.

AMEN.

florina “yhang” cabrera < 3

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MY BIRTHDAY WISH LISTS 2017

1.     I Wish to restore my first love to God my Lord through joining a Corporate Prayer and Fasting at least once a week (during work day-off.)

2.     I Wish to be more faithful in 10% Tithing and monthly pledge for our local Church Rental.

3.     If God permits, I Wish to conquer the heart of someone who chooses to stay no matter what, and I hope he conquers mine too.

I LOVE YOU, JESUS.

Love,

Yhang

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MY BIRTHDAY MESSAGE FOR MY FRIENDS 2017

I Love your company but please never misunderstand my need for tranquility as rejection or disinterest of you. Spending lengthy hours around people deplete me to the point of suffocation. I get the urge to run away. I really need to replenish my energy stocks. I discover now that the older I get, I’ve learned to like myself enough to want to spend a lot more time alone than with company. I still love the people I’ve loved even if I cross the street to avoid them.

But please always remember that I will be the last woman standing in the vision you are fighting for; and to see yourself with comrades who are rising with you again.

What will you fight for in this lifetime?

Who will you battle with on the same side?

For life is what we choose to create every single day.

Create a life worth fighting for. No regrets. Stay fearless..

Love,

BFF Yhang/cabreraflorina.blogspot.com/ios.florinac@gmail.com

MY BIRTHDAY MESSAGE FOR MY FUTURE MAN

Wherever you are, hope you’re chill in your journey towards your dreams, for I don’t know if we’ve met or haven’t met yet, but someday, if God permits, the universe will speak and together we will build an empire. I pray for the day I’ll hold your hand and support you to be your best. I’ll kiss your doubts and fears away, and make love with your dreams – tell me what consumes you, tell me what wakes you up in the morning, tell me your deepest desires that it echoes in your everyday and every night. Tell me that you are courageous to fight for SOMEONE LIKE ME because I AM DIFFERENT, I AM WEIRD. Tell me why I’m one among the many searches, tell me why you’re choosing me. Tell me how God builds you to be a man of commitment, of dreaming big. Tell me how I could be your number one fan, for I’ll hold your hand in those dark days when you need someone to understand that at the lowest points of your life, I will be there. I will be the last man standing for the person I love very, very much..

Love,

Yhang.

cabreraflorina.blogspot.com/ios.florinac@gmail.com

MY BIRTHDAY LOVE LETTER 2017

I heard the story of a Father giving his young daughter a string of pearls. The girls really loved the necklace until, days later, the father asked for it back. She refused. At the dinner table, night after night, the father would stretch out his hand and asked for the rice pearls. The girl resisted, pouted, cried, accused her dad of being mean and unfair, but was miserable. She was no longer enjoying dinner with her dad.

One night, she had enough. She decided to let go of the rice pearls so she can once more enjoy her father. So very reluctantly, she handed him back the necklace. To her dismay, the father immediately tossed it into a nearby fireplace. Then, he reached into his pocket and produced a string of real pearls. He had it all along, but wanted the girl to give up what was good so he may give her the best.

I know how it is to cling to that hurt so close to my chest that it has become as comfortable as an old shirt. I know letting him go is like giving up my right for happiness and my cry for vengeance: that the guy will pay! I know that after letting him go – letting my dreams go – is like draining all purpose from my life. I know that it feels like jumping into an abyss and letting the darkness have its malevolent way.

But I release you. You are not meant for me anyway. Like the father in the story, I trust that my Heavenly Father will be gracious to give me “the real pearl necklace.” The kind worth giving up everything else for. The kind worth waiting for.

The kind worth loving with all my heart..

“See to it… that no root of bitterness springing up causes trouble, and by it many be defiled (Hebrews 12:15.)”

I let you go..

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MY BIRTHDAY MESSAGE FOR ALL 2017

Iyon oh! 32 na me. At iyon oh! Still single pa me.

Nang ako ay nakapag-trabaho bilang isang sales lady, isa sa katuwaan ng kapwa ko sales lady ay ang ireto ako ng ireto sa lahat ng single guy na napapadako sa aming mga shop. Mapa-janitor, security guard, messenger, salesman, agent ay hindi napapalagpas na nairereto sa akin.

For me, I take it lightly and treated it as a source of good and clean fun.

Para sa marami, mahirap talaga maging single lalo na kapag nasa 30’s na. Andiyan kasi ang sandamakmak na panrereto at sandamukal na pagtatanong kung bakit single pa.

Nakakatuwa lang. Nakakatuwa dahil madalas, napaghihingahan ako ng mga kapwa ko sales lady ng sandamakmak nilang painful experiences sa buhay may asawa. Nasasabi ko na lang sa sarili ko, “Kitamz, palagi nila ako pinu-push na mag-asawa na pero ngayon magsasabi sila na nakaka-miss ang buhay single.” Waha! Ano ba talaga sistah!

Nasasabi ko na lang sa kanila, “Single or in marriage, magiging satisfying lang ito kung si Jesus Christ ang sentro.”

Ngayong birthday ko, marami na naman ang magtatanong at marahil you’re one of them, “Yhang, mag-aasawa ka pa ba?”

Ano sa palagay mo ang isasagot ko?

“May you see Jesus Christ at the centre of my life; whether single or in marriage.”

                                                                

Godbless.

florina “yhang” cabrera < 3

cabreraflorina.blogspot.com

ios.florinac@gmail.com

MY BIRTHDAY 2ND DIARY 2017

WRITER YNA

The day I left my vocation as a Church fulltime staff, my world broke into pieces. As a result, my intense passion to serve God melts. I felt that I’m not worthy anymore to be seen in the Church doing even the most unrecognizable work. I even lost my desire in social sites especially fb for the fear that people will accuse me and put guilt in my heart.

I was overwhelmed with grief. My grief weigh heavily on me. Mourning embraced me like a dark shroud. When no one is looking, my face crumples as if begging to weep. My heart is like a head weight. I am weary of carrying myself around. I am haunted. Numb. Lost.. I really desiring that the Lord will turn the page of my life, that I may finally see blessing and restoration. As I stand alone in my grief and losses, I hope that God’s restoration will come. Mayhap not spectacularly but quietly. Such then when it is finally  revealed. I will be surprised that it has been there all along. Who is to say, God will turn the page of my life  not with a loud and frantic shuffle, but with a gentle turn of His fingers.

He already knows what lies beyond the page. After all, He is the kind and and gracious Author, and knowing the wonders He has in store for me, as He turns the page –

… He smiles.

It was then one morning, while uttering a prayer inside a vehicle, God spoke to me very gentle,"My precious child, you cannot change the past, but you can change your response to the past. You must entrust your wounded yesterdays in My hands. I Am your Great Redeemer. Let your gratitude no longer be of regret or self-castigation. Rather, let it be one of a mellowed though bittersweet trust on Me who loves you to show Myself gracious and compassionate. Use your past to draw near to Me, not to draw yourself away from Me.”

writer yna/cabreraflorina.blogspot.com/ios.florinac@gmail.com