This is me accepting the fact that I
feel damage and broken beyond repair. My heart is shattered into parts, I feel
the pain, and everything is complicated. I feel lost and confused. I don’t know
what’s going to happen next and I don’t want to know it either. I just want to
let everything happen the way it should and I will only go through one day at a
time. I understand that I’m broken and I need to heal. I know exactly that I
should move on and the only way to heal my wounds is to accept its pain as I
forgive myself along the way. I’m slowly accepting myself who was too easy in
trusting people and giving my heart to other people. I am forgiving myself for
being too clumsy on giving my heart, on falling in love, on making mistakes in
choosing the wrong ones, for being hurt over and over again. I have learned my
own lessons and now I know exactly that I should love people more without
having any expectations. I understand that love should make me stronger instead
of feeling fragile and the only way to do it is to love without expecting any
reciprocation. I’m slowly forgiving myself for always letting people chose me
as their second best.
I’m forgiving myself who always been
taken for granted, simply because I always present for them through thick and
thin. I’m accepting myself for being honest and loyal even to the ones who
treated me like shit. Now I know exactly that I should value my own self-worth
and I’m not scared of getting out of those toxic relationships. I understand
that I should be treated the same way I’ve treat other people with kindness
just because.
I’m slowly accepting myself who was
always in doubt and giving other people mixed signals. Maybe this whole time, I
was the reason on why people have walked away from my life or maybe, I was the
one who has always walked away from theirs. I’m forgiving myself for taking
other people’s kindness for granted. I have learned that I should give my
attention and be more grateful for the ones who still stay beside me instead of
mourning those who left me behind. I’m forgiving myself for being too scared of
saying what I genuinely felt towards other people. I know that I should have
been unspoken and those feelings which have been wasted, just because I was
valuing my own pride more than honesty. From now on, I will no longer live my
life behind my ego as I understand that people should know what I really feel
towards them. I’m slowly accepting the way life has separated me with the ones
I loved, broke my heart because of those rejections, and made me feel so lonely
even in the place full of people. But I’m also accepting and trusting the way
life will mend my broken heart and give countless lessons for me to grow wiser.
I’m accepting the fact that most of
the times, I don’t know what’s good enough for me and the universe knows best.
I might be broken now, but I know I will be just fine.
This I me accepting that I’m broken
beyond repair and I’m still on my way to heal myself. I accept the pain, the hurt,
the bad memories, the loneliness, and the despair. I accept myself who can’t
always be strong and I’m slowly learning that it’s totally okay to say, “I’m
not okay.” From now on, I will love my brokenness and be proud of it; this is
me accepting my own brokenness in order to completely heal.
-thought catalog
God Bless Us..
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