Once upon a time, there was a young
child who is very shy and very quiet. For that, she’s always awarded a ribbon
as the “Most Behave” in the class. Until she graduated from Elementary and turn
into High School, her attitude never changes. She even not attended 3rd
and 4th year Junior’s/Senior’s Prom.
She turns into College life and still
not attended Acquaintance Party for the freshmen. She has a very few friends in
neighbors and in classes.
It was then when she reached the age
of 20’s that she decided to make some changes in her attitude. Even when it’s
really hard for her, she tried to develop her social life.
She enters in a Church to work. From
there, she meets a lot of people coming from different places. She also started
to create social accounts like Facebook – the most popular, and created Blog as
her Online Diary. And for the ultimate decision she made for that social life,
she allowed herself to engage in the opposite sex, to share her love and be
loved also. She allowed herself to fall in love. Deeply. Passionately. She
became very happy together with the man she loves.
She tried hard to change herself –
from Introvert to Extrovert. And she succeeded. She began to have lots of
friends and experienced many loving relationships. And she became very, very
happy.
But…
When she reached the age of 30’s, she
was forgotten.
She found herself hurt, broken,
crying..
She said, “If I didn’t force myself
to be an Extrovert and just allowing myself to embrace the real me, I will never
experience this kind of friendship and romantic failure. If I’m just contented
in being the real me as an Introvert and not forcing to learn to be an
Extrovert, I guess, I haven’t full of regrets now..”
Still, there’s people that wants to
have friend with her (and even wanted her to be their girflfriend) but she now
refuses. She guess she have phobia (fear of experiencing heart breaks again.)
She doesn’t know if she was able to
love again because it seems that nothing was left on her. It seems she had
already given away all the love and care her heart have. Nothing remains.
Will you Teach my Heart to Trust and
Love again?
-Ri Na
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