LABAN LANG

Recently, I’ve been receiving messages asking how I’ve recovered from the looms of 2017. You want me to paint a picture of how ugly it was? Twice I was almost hit on the road coz I was thinking heavily over problems, I suffered depression and poor health, cut my hair, hurt myself, couldn’t eat, had suicide attempts and thoughts, unprettiest state of me to those who pm’ed me, wish I could dedicate a day for you coz I know how it feels and let me tell you these..

..forget about people. The only people you should care about you be your family. And few friends out there who will stand by you, and you, you have you.

You know why I’m thankful those dark days happened? Because I became a warrior. I learned to walk away from people, thoughts, ways and plans that didn’t work out. You will be strong. You will learn how to fight. You will learn to let it all go. I tell you, you will see the darkest you, yet out of the dark you will come out strongest. You can overcome, only when you realize that the only thing you have is yourself and God. Because when everything else fails, when everyone has left you, when things don’t turn out the way you planned it to be, God will carry you back to your dreams, you will no longer be obsessed over who stayed or who helped at your lowest, you have yourself.

Be brave to walk alone. This is the greatest fight of your life.

..get out of your room. The wolves you breed inside your room will haunt you. Get out. Walk, run, just get out of your room and see how normal life gets outside. That there are people peddling, begging, people in blue and white collar jobs, you ask, why are they buying books? Why are they biking? Why are they riding buses? When you realize that there is a greater world outside of you, you begin to rebuild what you’ve lost.

Coz for as long as you breathe, you’ve got a purpose, you’re not a failure, stop expecting for an apology to happen, stop anticipating that help will come – you create it. Forget about what people say about you. In those dark days you feel paralyzed as if you can do nothing. But outside your room lies a playground – and you begin to live again.

..this is actually how I ultimately recoverd: all havoc started June 2017, few months after I told God, I just wanna make it til my brother’s bday (Oct), I just wanna be with my father on all soul’s day (Nov), I just wanna be with my mama on Christmas (Dec), I just wanna start anew this 2018 (Jan), guess what, it’s March, told Him, let’s have a deal, You give me one last chance, or You can get me anytime. That deal is still on anyway, I’m just not so afraid to die, I’m super not, why should I be afraid? My father who loves me so much is up there? But to live everyday is a gift. Maximize!

..keep busy. You will become grateful. You will regain focus. You’ll embrace day-to-day activities again. You will get hurt again, but you’ve got too immune about it, it doesn’t matter anymore. And while problems don’t leave us, you will become solution – oriented.

Self-love is key. You’ve got to choose to be happy every single day, even when things are not going your way.

To those who pm’ed suffering depression, you’re in for a life-changing period of your life. You will never ever forget the courage this stage will bring in your life.

Unleash,, pick up your gear and fight. Laban lang..

-Maria Krissy Domingo

God Bless Us..

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