HONESTY WITH GOD

“For I am poor and needy, and my heart is wounded within me.” Psalm 109:2

A mother had been told her boy, Peter, had a malignant and incurable disease. She said, “There was nothing left to live for. I went into the garden one morning and at the top of my voice I called God every bad word I knew. My poor husband, driven to distraction with worry, put his hand over my mouth and implored me to pull myself together. I shouted, ‘What does it matter? There isn’t even a God and so I can do no harm; if there is a God, I am already in hell. I cannot possibly suffer anymore.’

“Oh yes, you might well be shocked, but I feel certain that at this moment Jesus looked down on me with compassion. For the first time in my life I was being honest with God. I was telling Him what I really thought and I meant every word I said, I look upon this episode as a crisis in God’s pattern.”

This woman reached rock bottom in her life. She pressed her anger, and resentment against God as forcibly as she could. But underneath what she thought was rock bottom, she found the Rock of Ages who could help and give peace.

On the day of her son’s funeral, she said, “We did the only thing possible: we surrendered Peter to God. My doubts and prejudices have vanished, and in their place, a true knowledge of the love of God exists. I feel I have been born again into a new world where life is real.”

Honesty with oneself is not easy to come by. The very form of religion can become a barrier between ourselves and God and sometimes only a deep crisis in our personal lives reveals the sham. But honesty with God is the only way we can ever find peace with Him. The Bible says, “The Lord looks at the heart.” Be honest with Him; stop putting up a religious front.

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